Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Lap bands and Bananas

I went to all the trouble of losing 55kgs by having a gastric bypass Laparoscopic lap band inserted to be a physical impediment to overeating five years ago. I don't regret having it done for one minute but I do regret my returning to bad habits. Banana's are my downfall these days.

Nothing except self discipline will help me to avoid falling back into the trap of emotional overeating. I learnt a lot of new things about myself and my behaviour while I was under the care of the psychologist following my lap banding surgery and I need to go back to those new skills that I was taught to pull myself back from the bad habits thinking again.
It's absolutely amazing the real part our thinking and self-talk plays in our perception of ourselves. It's this perception of ourselves that governs our behaviour towards ourselves. When we constantly rouse at ourselves for being slow or inadequate in some ways or skills we tend to go for the comfort food. My favourite comfort food is mashed banana with sugar sprinkled very liberally all over it. And if there is a bit of cream in the refrigerator it simply has to be added into the mixture.

Lately, I have been under a bit of stress and my self-talk hasn't been diplomatic or even remotely polite. I need to change this and start to see what I have accomplished each day instead of seeing the things I wanted to have done and didn't get done. Once I start seeing the glass as half full again instead of seeing it as half empty perhaps I'll then be comfortable again limiting myself to a simply peeled half banana and without the need for all the sugar.

So having a lap band is no guarantee of maintaining ones ideal weight with no effort because it's only a physical limitation. Our emotions are cunning and can find ways around everything unless we have our brains firmly disciplined. But we all know that bananas can make anyone slip, don't we?



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